Feeling GREAT Today!!!

I feel awesome. I feel rested, secure, focused, calm, and I host of other things. I am not sure if it's the new meds, the sleep, the vacation, or the fact that I feel like I am where I need to be. I am even feel excited about my job, which I haven't really since I started.

The point is that I feel good today, and I really want to keep this feeling going. I know that not every day will be like today, but it's great to not feel anxious.

I really feel relaxed, and overjoyed.

I've also learned a lot about myself. I am a lot stronger than I think I am, and I need to take care of myself. I've just been accustomed to taking care of others first, and push my own needs away. This has caused a problem in my relationships because my not taking care of myself turned into excessive neediness and anxiety, which in turn has been a strain on my relationship. Especially with my wife.

I really can't be mad anymore, or sad, or hurt. In fact, for now... I am not any of these things. I'm learning as I go, but I hope that everything has happened for a reason and that reason is to make our relationship stronger. I know it's going to take time.

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