Growing Up Dad

I am about to lose it. I'm done. I have had it. I am not happy, and I am tired of having to be all the time. I'm a failure. 100% pure failure. I can't take it anymore. I am tired of being taken advantage of. I am tired of trusting people. I am tired of expecting people to do the right thing, and always being let down. I am done.

Pardon the pity party, but I don't know if I'll make it to 2015. I don't know how many will even notice. I'm tired of being the work mule. I am tired of having to put myself aside and wait for everyone else around me. I am tired of being the one to keep the house running only to have no time, energy, or resources to work on my projects. I have a garage piling high in recycling because it's too cold to go out there and sort it. I have boxes of Christmas decorations in the hall waiting to be put away. Only thing is that I need to clean up the garage to get them out there. The kids beds need to be changed, meaning I have mattresses to move. Guess who is in charge of scheduling that? Me. I have a kitchen to clean, constantly. I have dinners to make because I need to start eating better. The problem is, that I will need to make several dinners because I am sure no one will eat what I need to eat. I have laundry to wash or else no one will have clean clothes. I ha

What am I looking forward to in 2014? If the last 2 days were any sign, then nothing. The last 2 days have just sucked. I'm almost ready to throw in the towel.